I have been in various social circles before, which means I have been in cliques ranging from the popular gang to nerdy group, which are a far cry from each other. I have to admit I’m a jerk. In all these 18 years of my life, I have only had 4 best friends but a whole bunch of acquaintances. Among all my best friends, I have ditched 2 of them and the third one left me by her own. Now, I’m left with the last one and I’m happy for that.
I’m a jerk, but that doesn’t mean I don’t cherish my former best friends. I’ve been through a lot of emotional torture and I’ve learned A LOT from them.
When I was 4, I had this childhood best friend (She was the head of the popular gang) I was the conservative type back then.
She was showy, but in a way that displayed her never-fading confidence — Needless to say, our personalities didn’t match in the least. We quarelled a lot and back stabbbed each other countless of times, but I still keep her by my side for 8 years. For these 8 years, we’ve been torturing each other but still, we refused to let go of this toxic relationship. When I finally decided to ditch her, I bawled my eyes out for at least a friggin’ week. But to be honest with you, I never once regretted my decision.
I’m happy with mine today. She’s a person with a lot of moral values and she has taught me a lot of life lessons. I love her and I know she loves me too. In my personal opinion, the key to finding your soul mate is to spend time in nurturing and giving. If you find that he or she does not appreciate what you do, don’t think too much about it. Just ditch them.
Don’t be afraid to be a jerk once in a while. You’ll find better. I promise you that.